TRIPLE KILL!!!!!

oh well... this coming friday is my last CA 1 test, BFD... time still unknown but expected to start quite late... i oredi got 2 'A's for OFA and WPB and now, one more to get a complete GPA of 4.0... im going for the 'killing spree'. after BFD, there is still OFA and WPB CA 2 coming and again, im aiming for 'mega kill', for those who played dota, should know what im talking about. then is the end-module BFD exam. wow! time really seems to fly past very fast and really i can't afford to stop and think everyday is holiday now. as you can see, i oredi start planning all the way till the end-module exam.

seriously, getting a GPA of 4.0 is really nothing as compared to poly. what the? why am i thinking long-term... what's more important now is my current studies, isn't it? well, planning to put everything aside for now and go for the gold... i understand that this is a long-term battle for me, it is a do or die thingy. even if im not able to get an 'A' for my upcoming BFD CA 1 but i must at least get a 'B' for it... only like this will i be able to get the targeted GPA that i want, which is 3.2... it looks like my dreams are not that far away from me now. personal things aside, studies first... sooner or later, my dreams will become a reality...

Privavte Life, Private Matter

wth... juz 1 day and so many happened... Is this a curse or what? My blog had never survived for more than a year, not even a year. Whatever it is, i am not going to do anything about it anymore. This blog of mine had already gone through 11 months and almost a year old. So i felt it is a waste just to give up like that cos it records all my experiences in society, whether in school or at work, and this blog contain quite a number of photos with my friends, so no way i am going to delete it away BUT i am going to put a stop to it by putting password security in my blog.

It is really painful sometimes, I had to sit around, figuring who or what had entered my blog and tell the whole world about it... It is just so painful, I even suspect my best friend, who i really trusted a lot... I had been betrayed many times and really no one understand more than I do when it comes to being betrayed by friends... Like in the drama, "Switched!", a so-called best friend can even cause your downfall. People just watched drama and never ever wonder what is the moral behind every drama and every movie. This blog tells about my little world and there is a reason why i only tells some of you but not all. This is all about my thoughts, my feelings and what i expect of myself. I am not angry of whoever came into my blog but whatever you do, tell me about it and don't do everything behind my back... Juz 1 day and there goes my blog. Even the teacher knew about it but he, of course, trying to hide about it.

When i feel that you are worth my trust, naturally i will tell you about it but of course, if you were like those jokers in my Secondary school, i give you my words, you will never ever regain my trust again, like those jokers and i mean it... This is my private life, private matter. If i choose to let you know about it, hopefully you won't do something behind my back...

The Final Shot

Things are beginning to take shape now... This is our game but I am the player and she is the one who decide if i win or lose the game, meaning "Our Game, Her Rules.". I dunno how it is going to turn out but hopefully I get the 'Final Shot!".

From the beginning, I portrayed this as a game whereby I, as the player, have to try and get a headshot. Only then will I win the game. However, it is not i, alone who decide the outcome of this game, it is her who decide. All these while, i waited and waited, for the right moment to fire that 'Final Shot'. I had missed that shot last Saturday and tomorrow may be the right moment. I lost many games in the past but this time, with the supports from friends, I may win the game this time round... Even if I lose, I will treat this as another game lost... Like I said before, if i win this game, I will never ever touch this game again. She will be my one and only 專屬天使 (guardian angel) and I mean it from the bottom of my heart. This game is about to end sooner or later. I may not have 2 years to play this game. I dun want to regret my whole life for not knowing the outcome of this game. I dun want to feel the same heartache that I felt before when I knew she might be leaving last semester. Also, hopefully this shot won't backfire... This is life, full of suspense, not knowing how our stories will be like the next day, be it a present one or an unpleasant one. But isn't this suspense that really keep everybody's lives interesting and exciting???

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I had never been happy before. So happy that I can't wait to put it down right here, right now... Well, she is not 100% sure of going cos' of her mother. I know i am being a bit too proud but i know all mothers in this world, i mean come on, i have 3 younger cousins and their mother too are worried about who they are hanging out with cos' they are too females and i have been told to try and get into their world and give them advise whenever possible... But it is more like they have been coming to me for advise more then i tried to understand their 'inner world'...

So back to what happening this sat is that finally i have the courage to call her and ask her out... I am happy and overjoyed although it is just 50% complete... The other half, well is about her mother cos' that day happen to be her mother's birthday too and for some reasons, her mother seems to object to it... well, still she said she will call me back by this friday and hopefully i will get some good news from her... Really, that kind of happiness in me is really indescribable, it just make me feel that all the activities that i had prepared just for her won't go to waste... Though her brother maybe going but that won't stop me from carrying out what i had for her, the kind of surprise that i have for her (or maybe a scare for her, well i don't know what is it going to be until we find out...).

She and me, both of us seems to have quite a lot in common... I don't know if she agree but the way that she answered her friends when asked whether want to go out or not is not definite... Better not go on until i am dead sure about it... Well, this is it! Until next time :)