My views about Virtual World

After watching yesterday's one of the shows in channel U, "Shoot 3", made me realize something. I asked myself these questions, "Why am I doing? Why do I made myself as lowly as those jokers? What are their motives? attract attention? or others?" What they discuss in that show do make some sense and of course, they hit some senses into me. Virtual and reality, both of them are different thing. The world is moving so fast now that most of us can't do anything when the internet is down. We are so use to our style of living now to the extent that we all are reluctant to go back into the so-called "stone age".

Talking about virtual and reality, I do agree when they said that humans' personalities are different virtually and in reality. I mean virtually, people would not know who you are and you can talk anything bad about them, and making them so-called "famous" or even unpopular and best of all, that victim won't know who you are and who was causing all these. In my case, people actually uses my name in others' blog, insulting others etc when they are deny access into my blog, this is when i am force to allow everyone to access into here. Like I said, the real identity is anonymous unless that person want you to know who he or she is. This is nothing as compared to these attention seekers using others' identities to gain access into their friends' blog, insult them etc.. Worse of all, as discuss in the show, instead of insulting you, they insult your parents and relatives etc.. Whatever it is, I have decided to renew my tagboard and delete away all nonsenses in my tagboard if any.

Break At Last

Finally, break at last... Had been trying to do last minute revision yesterday and of course, going through again today before going into the examination venue. This final last paper of the semester really got me working and i am glad this is all over. What's next? Wait for the overall results for this semester. Last Wednesday was OFA last test, Access, and honestly, it is much simpler as compared to the assignments we had done.

Somehow I have many thoughts in my mind and this is really quite annoying when you are unable to get them out of your head. Well, this year I saw a lot of my past and I am so glad that all that had happened, had happened and this is going to be a new era for me. But then, some are not as lucky as me... Like 1 of my friends, in him, i saw what happened to me in the past, being isolated and so on... Seeing this, it really pains me. I see myself in him in the past, only 1 or 2 friends to rely on or they are not even your friends at all. You see, I always compard myself with others and somehow, I always see a link between that person and myself... I finally understand that acedemic results may be important but having friends too are also important. These 6 months allows me to learn quite of things and also knowing myself better, good or bad... I also know that I am damn childish most of the time and come to think of it, it is really very silly of me to do some of the things in the past. I no longer have the feeling of isolation, the feeling of being condemned... I don't care whoever post in my tagboard anymore. I live for myself, not for them... This is life!!!! :)

Teachers' Day 2007

well, yesterday was the eve of teachers' day... school supposed to end at 1pm yesterday but i skipped it in order to go back to my sec. sch. to meet my teachers and former classmates. well, some of us change while some of us don't and seriously i am glad i went back. it had been a while since i last seen those jokers and i supposed it is a good thing. who care where they gone too as long as they leave my life alone...

i was a bit reluctant to go back initially cos' i really feel bad about it, for not being able to go poly or jc... but then well, i still went back, didn't i? to me, the best thing in life is that able to contact one another (excluding those jokers) even we all went our own way after graduation. it really feel great to be together again though i used to hope that we would not need to meet again after that... actually, the fact is that i hope not to see those jokers again and it came true. without them, at least my life can go back to normal. the feeling that i had whenever i see her had not disappeared yet though it had been a year. that feeling just came back to me naturally. i really somehow feel quite bad about it... it still the same, trying to avoid her whenever i can... other than that, everything was normal. talking about reflex action, i myself is used to what nazri did to me whenever he saw me...

well, that's it for what i want to update about yesterday and i hope that there will be a 4e1 '06 class gathering this coming Dec or maybe Sept holiday. Don't ask me why but i just like these kinds of outing together...

4E1 '06 celebrating Teachers' Day Back In Tanglin