Lunar New Year Review

These past 3 days of lunar month was fun as usual and as i always says, fun time ends fast. What was exceptionally fun was the third day of the lunar new year. Celebrating with my friends and teacher, mrs. koh. It feels great to be together with the class again. Not to mention, i was lucky too for the first 2 days but on the third day when playing with my friends, i never/seldom won a single game. Guess i shouldn't play with them, should i?

Everything was the same like what we did every year, visiting relatives and friends, receiving ang pao (red packets) and have fun with cousins etc.. Actually not much to update... Wonder if my friends had uploaded the photos we took in our teacher's hse? If they have, i would like a copy in my blog too... I think it would take some time for them to update since most of them are in JC and i guess they won't have much time like me... lol... Alright! Until next time...

4e1 '06 @ Mrs. Koh's Hse on third day of lunar month

Valentine's Day Hatred

It seems that everyone was wondering why i titled this entry as above. The reason is very simple. I sweared that i will never forget whatever happened last year. Honestly, sometimes how i wished i would just liked her secretly. Like that, maybe everyone will be happy. But that is not the case. Knowing those jokers very well, why would i even do that thing? Many things happened since that day and that is why there will be 2 particular dates i will never forget. I was just recalling that incident and comes to think of it, only Ian and Nelson (and Alvin from 4e3 last year) refreshed other people of the 'interesting' things that i had done in class. Liking someone is not wrong but if that person feel uneasy after whatever you had done, then this is completely wrong. That is why i was so frustrated when they bring this up again and again. I felt i had done something wrong and always trying to correct it but each time, i made it worse than before.

She avoided me like she had seen a ghost since then. I don't blame her because if i was her or if anyone was her, we would all do the same. I wanted to end this quick so i was thinking about me and her being just normal friends. Thanks to those jokers, things got worsen. I always wanted to explain to her but i had no chance to. But then since now, everyone of us goes the different path, let this be over but for those jokers, I WILL NEVER FORGIVE THEM! I never wanted to have anything to do with them and really, i don't even bothered to explain to them. Let them think and do what they want.

In conclusion, the reason why i titled this entry as above is because this incident began after Valentine's Day and the 'hatred' refers to my hatred for those jokers. Hence, the title, "Valentine's Day Hatred"

(Facts: I almost forgot... They are also known as pollutants to me and hence, "jokers-cum-pollutants")

Results!!!!

2 days ago, i received my 'o' lvl results and unsurprisingly, my results turned out bad... Look in between the lines, there are actually good abt my results. At prelim, my L1R4 was ard 34 but now my L1R4 is 27, my 'a' maths used to be a F9 always but unexpectedly, my results for 'a' maths is a D7 now. Everything improved except for my sciences. It's a pity that my sciences failed. If my sciences were much better, maybe I will not be in the state I am in now... So where am I heading to next? ITE... Remember I calculated the %tage of me going to different types of school before receiving my 'o' lvl results? Look like my calculation quite accurate, isn't it? Since I had already calculated out that I would go ITE, then what's there to be sad abt. Of course, personally, I am very disappointed with the results I got.

My parents didn't scold me or whatsoever and that made me feel really quite guilty abt myself. My mother told me today that she put some money aside for me to buy laptop for poly courses and now I failed to make it, I felt even more worse inside me. Someone actually told me this, "Do Not Limit Yourself, You Believe What You Can Achieve.". That's it... The vast universe is my limit and I am going to whatever I can this year. Even if I am in ITE, nothing can stop me from the chance to be promoted to poly. Discipline is important. Comparing my prelim and my 'o' lvl results, it is not that I am stupid but just pure lazy, that's all! I am going to change all that and transform myself into a new me. Trust me, it really good to have a friend who really cares abt you and take the effort to console you. "A friend in need is a friend indeed.". How true this is for now that I had experience it myself. Besides that friend of mine, my school and tuition teachers and my parents, and not to forget those friends that are with me for the past 1 month.

So as for now, ace my course in ITE and go to a poly. And that's how I am going to repay my parents, that friend of mine, my sec 4 form teacher (Mrs. Koh) and tuition teachers (Mr. Tan) and those who helped me along the way...

(P.S: Due to some reasons, whoever friend i am refering to shall remain a secret between me and that person so as to prevent any nonsense from those jokers [if i were to remove the pw]...)

Release Of 'O' Level Results

The GCE 'O' Level results are going to release this Friday (9 Feb) and my feelings now as the release day is drawing nearer and nearer? One word, 'nervous'. Well, who won't? Before knowing about the actual release date of my GCE 'O' Level results, my confidence drops day by day. I hate to admit it but I just felt that I had not study enough for the exams. I don't know why I felt this way, maybe due to the results I got for prelim last September. Many told me that prelim bound to be more difficult than the actual thing but still I could not distressed myself. Once the thought of the release of the results comes into my mind, it makes my hairs stand. Now after knowing the release will be this Friday, my confidence level drops tremendously, to a near zero. How do you expect me to react when the results comes out negative? It really takes miracle to drop my L1R4 points from 30+ to below 20 and as for my L1R5, it takes more than a miracle to drop from 40+ to below 25, which is far more impossible to achieve.

When I came to know that the results will be release this Friday, my first reaction was, "Oh no! How is my results going to turn out to be?" and "What if I didn't fare well?". Seriously, I am more worry than anyone out there waiting for the results to be release. I am now getting ready for the worst to befall me, well so that when I get the release, I won't be disappointed and cry out in front of my friends, right? Anyway, when I cry, who will care about me? As I write on, my feelings now are more than being nervous, 'scared' and 'afraid' are the words that I used to described my feelings now.

Whatever is the results, though I am prepare for the worst, I sure hope everything goes well for me and at least I can go to a JC or a Poly.