12 June

yesterday just went to the 4e1 chalet and really, i'm quite glad that i'm there... don't ask me why but it's just some feelings that i had, maybe i'm glad that i was able to meet up with them after so long or well, i really don't know... seriously, after so long, some of us change but some didn't even change a bit. nazri took part in the Teenage Icons and will be performing in IMM at 17 june... well, all the best to you, naz...:)

also, i received my OFA and WPB CA and as i expected, 'B's if not 'A's, i got 'A's for both and of course, i was overjoyed. i remembered the last time i received 'A's was in Sec 1 and 2 for my general science. those were the days... what exactly is the meaning of life? what is the meaning of love? just have a lot of questions in my head that doesn't seems to have an answer. She maybe leaving after this week and my friends asked me: "what i would do if she left?" and "Would i still be able to be in contact with her?"... in all my life, i had never encountered this problem and as for me, of course i hope she won't leave until she had her 'o's results cos' i felt she is really taking a very big risk and she is to fail her 'o's again (~touchwood~), she have to retake the whole year again, meaning she had to relearn what we learn now. But then she feels that it worth the risk, well there's nothing i can say... if she were to leave, she had to work doubly hard to ensure she really gets into poly or else...whatever her decision may be, i still hope to keep in contact with her and hopefully, won't lose it... different people have different characteristics but some are to extreme than the others. it is due to these people that keep our lives in class entertaining and not boring...

Well, as for now, hopefully those photos are send to me as soon as possible so i can post it here!!!

So Much Had Happened

Things seems to be getting out of control now... I knew i shouldn't have sms her that question and now here i am, worrying if history will repeat itself or not. If it really repeat itself, well what can i do? The only thing that i can do now is to try and amend everything i had done wrong and see if i can turn the situation around.

Seriously, looking at her and my friends now, i can't help thinking back at those days... Like i said many times, it is going to be my darkest moment and that is the reason why im so afraid that history would repeat itself. Well, still let see how things turn out, hopefully positive this week. Feel kinda sad not being able to go to the 4e1 chalet. Am i the only one who unable to go? I have been thinking, if the lecturer release us early for the day 2moro, should i go or not? But still thinking, isn't it good that i did not go. Guess i won't be able to enjoy myself since i will still have school the next day and i always feels awkwards that Jaime kept avoiding me... Well, come to think of it, i guess it is still best that i didn't go... But as for the year-end outing, guys remember to call and tell me about it! I am sure going for that outing. Feeling kinda emo. now...

I didn't go for the CIP yesterday cos' of something that happened last year. I mean what is the use of helping someone when others don't want to help... I have come across an idiot who asked me many questions and didn't donate in the end, so what the use?

Next time then update lar... Got to rush liao.. Until next time.

June 2007

It seems to me that everything is going well for me... juz finish WPB and OFA CA last week... rather confident that i will do well, at least a 'B's, if not 'A's... as compared to what my life used to be, it's really great. It had been 7 weeks now since i got posted to ITE. I find myself really lucky cos in most of the classes that I went to, be it in primary school or secondary school, the teachers that i had met is really quite patient but they cannot be compared to the teachers that now taught me... All the teachers that teach my class now are more patient and more concern about the students' well-beings... On top of that, they really can stand a lot of nonsenses from my classmates... Well, they are human beings too, right? So, when it reaches beyond what they can stand, they 'explode' of course.

There are some things in which there are no explanations or whatsoever. Come to think of it, it had been about 4 months since i last met up with the 4e1 ppl. Some things just don't forget, even if you want to forget about it. Sometimes, i was really wondering what kept the bonds between us going. Is it someone, something or some events? honestly speaking, i misses 4e1 sometimes, although i had quite a lot of unhappy events with that class (cos of those jokers). sigh! stop talking about the past events already, not worth it! i felt kinda disappointed for not being able to go the class chalet...

Life still goes on... some things i would rather wait till i have succeeded before putting it here. What's the use of putting it here when eventually i did not achieve it, right? I guess some should know what im talking about (or not)... Well, this is an update for the 1st week of a new month... As for my results, regardless of good or bad, i may post it here... CHEER! :)