Indecisive Me
I really hate myself... to the extent that i can't accept the way i am... i am always that indecisive and when they are gone, what else can i do except ot blame myself for not deciding on certain issues fast enough. For example, to lock or not to lock this blog, i really cannot decide. To do or not to do something, im always that indecisive and really, i hate that side of me... things are not really going well for me cos' i had to make a decision that will change my life... i dunno if i will live to regret it or not but somehow, i still dunno how to reply him and tell her...
Friendship
I had gone through a lot for the past few years and now, am i really giving up all these just for him... giving up a forest for a tree... i never imagine myself being in these situation and now i understand what really makes a person change all of the sudden... just like last 2 years... i really dunno how to choose... friend or friends?? foe or foes?? What am i supposed to do??
Relationship
and today, after school, i have the urge to talk to her but something is pulling me back... plus, i saw her alone in the bus-stop but at that time, i was already crossing the road... i have the urge to go back and well, talk to her or something but i just couldn't decides. When i decided to head back, she was already gone... what a failure! Always that indecisive! Even what to eat, go or play, i need others to decide for me... what exactly am i afraid of?? The Past?? or Rejection??
For heaven's sake, why am i having so much problem? To get her, i need supports from friends and their advices but since the class somehow dislike him that much, the situation will be unfavourable to me and my main problem is, "Does she hates him too?"... but if choose to be with him, there is a possibility that i will never get her cos' most of his advices are non-logical and too rash, plus i will be back to where i started and if she was like the others, then it will be impossible between me and her...
Forest or Tree?? Friend or Friends?? Foe or Foes?? Sigh! How am i supposed to decide between these 2??
Friendship
I had gone through a lot for the past few years and now, am i really giving up all these just for him... giving up a forest for a tree... i never imagine myself being in these situation and now i understand what really makes a person change all of the sudden... just like last 2 years... i really dunno how to choose... friend or friends?? foe or foes?? What am i supposed to do??
Relationship
and today, after school, i have the urge to talk to her but something is pulling me back... plus, i saw her alone in the bus-stop but at that time, i was already crossing the road... i have the urge to go back and well, talk to her or something but i just couldn't decides. When i decided to head back, she was already gone... what a failure! Always that indecisive! Even what to eat, go or play, i need others to decide for me... what exactly am i afraid of?? The Past?? or Rejection??
For heaven's sake, why am i having so much problem? To get her, i need supports from friends and their advices but since the class somehow dislike him that much, the situation will be unfavourable to me and my main problem is, "Does she hates him too?"... but if choose to be with him, there is a possibility that i will never get her cos' most of his advices are non-logical and too rash, plus i will be back to where i started and if she was like the others, then it will be impossible between me and her...
Forest or Tree?? Friend or Friends?? Foe or Foes?? Sigh! How am i supposed to decide between these 2??
posted by 童话 (little devil-nt) at
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