Month Review

well... just went to see others' blog and it's good that everyone is living well. But i got to admit that some entries that i read from others' blog is rather funny. Don't want to mention who but really quite funny. ok lah! i know i am quite a emotional kid but seriously, i quite miss some of my friends, obviously not those jokers. but here i am, life is much more better and interesting now. am i a bit contradicting myself? lol, who cares? normally, i don't read others' blog (except my own relative's) but i don't know why today i read almost all the blog that linked right here in my blog. ok lah! i also read HER blog, can? if you know who i am talking about. anyway things already happened so long ago that i don't want to remember it anymore, cos it always make me feels more angry of those jokers, but i don't about HER lah. And also, hopefully i also have the chance to go Korea too. it seems so fun there.

it is approaching the end of the month and next week have the BCM (Business Communications) listening compre. CA (if i heard it correctly). wtf! project after project... never ending. For my ERP (Enterprise Resources Planning), hopefully, i am doing better rather than doing worse.

All right then. that's the update for today and probably the last for this month.

Revival

I just don't know why I had so much to write about this month but whenever I had thing that I think worth putting right here, why not? It is much better than putting it inside me, isn't it?

I had given it much thought. I should not "一局定生死", I should try much harder, shouldn't I? I mean I failed once doesn't mean I will failed the second time, right? I should not just complain this and that and do nothing about it, is it? Why didn't I have this thought earlier? Wonder if it is too late? You never try, you never know...

Time just passed by so fast. November is ending and December is approaching. Time wait for no man, how true... All the things seems to happen only just yesterday. The feelings, the incidents and whatsoever, I seems to remember it like it only happened yesterday. Sigh! So fast...

November Disasters

Just in a complete foul mood today. I don't know why I feel so lousy today, no spirit to listen to class, mind wondering about and yawning most of the time. Today just sucks. Some matters that I don't feel I should be angry about or sad about, I just feel what I feels. What's wrong with me?

If wish ever come true, I told myself that the first thing that I want is supernatural powers so that I can eliminate all the people that I hate in this world. I really thought I had given up but that feelings keep coming back and I had no one to share with. It feels to me as if no one in this world can be trusted except yourself. Friends are friends for a common goal but when this goal is achieved, friends can turn foes, especially those who like to make fun of people, those are the people that may not be your lifetime friends as I can tell from my experiences. This is also proven right through my experiences. It's all about survival of the fittest in this world and when you are weak, you are most likely to be the odd one out.

Yesterday during test, I admit I had the desire to copy like all of my the other peers but my mind forbided me to do so. It's always my mind and my heart that are telling me what is right and what is wrong (or perhaps it's my parents' teaching). They are the ones that keep me out of troubles. They are the ones that forbid me to do things against my principles. I use my head more than my mouth or fists and that is what make me different from others and because of this, people called me weakling. Who cares? Me is me and no one can change me ever...

Life's A Drama

Just watch a drama, "斗牛.要不要". It's a new Taiwan idol show and i really quite like those dramas. The drama can sometime be touching while other time may be quite funny. Talking about dramas, I always say that life is like a drama, except the fact that you won't know what is the next episode about.

Between love, family and friends, in my own perspective view, I think in general, people will rank love first, followed by family and friends. People often say love are blind and there is no need a reason to love someone. But then people will often asked questions like, "Why you love this/that person?". This question can be annoying sometimes or get even worse, they came up with their own ridiculous answers, don't they? Just got pissed off by all these questions sometimes.

Back to the dramas, "斗牛.要不要" is a drama about a basketball game that brings two lovebirds together. "斗牛" simply refers to basketball matches. Other drama that I watched recently is, "櫻野三加一".

4 Flavours of Life

Instead of calling us "The Magnificant 10" , why not call us "The Perfect 10" instead? lolz... I am not sure about them but for myself, I am certainly aiming to perfect my life, starting with my results...

I had tasted almost all the 4 flavours of life and knows how each flavours feel. I guess this should be the reason why I existed. I used to ask myself, "What is my purpose in life? Why am I in this world? Why am I even exist?". Now I knows. I guess not many people get a chance to taste the 4 flavours of life and I should be the lucky one. Once the place and condition is right, I will just get to taste one of these 4 flavours. What I am lacking now is the spicy taste. I don't know how it feels like or should i say who will allow me to have the chance to taste this last flavour of life. Sweet, Sour and Bitter, I tasted them. For now, among these, I guess the one that is unbearable is most likely to be the Sour taste. Calling us "The Magnificant 10" should be something that I should not get so worked up with but somehow, I just feel fed up with him calling us this name. I guess that Sour taste has eventually turn into hatred for him... Whatever it is, I should not dwell on it anymore.

Tomorrow is our Progress Test 3 and until now, I am still not quite satisfied with the results I am getting. Guess I should get ready now, shouldn't I? Well then, that's it!

Week Review

One Song To Conclude It All for This Week...

Linkin Park-Given Up

That's All For This Week... :)

Problem Expressing Myself

Maybe, most of them don't understand me enough. Sometimes, they feel they do, but in fact, they don't. All these years, it seems that they just use me as a form of their "entertainment" but they never realised how I will feel. However, things start to look better nowadays.

For me, I don't really know how to put across a message to others or whatsoever. In only recent years, I knew I can convey my message to someone or about something, in the form of music and drawings, like the song goes, "歌声代替语言" (Using music in place of words). But the main problem lies here... Does they know what they meant? I just isolate myself whenever there is a problem but since 1 year ago, I had this blog, I found out that I can pour everything out right here, not letting anyone knows about it except for the person or people you trust the most.

Today is just like any other day until it reaches towards the end. I do not mind people laughing at me but is there a need to do it again and again. I was angry at that point of time but what can I do? I just transfer all my anger to play basketball. It turns out better until someone came. I just lose the mood after that but soon, I pick up the energy again to play. I don't go for violence unless necessary. I would rather find a better way out to force out all my anger like play some sports, writing my experiences here in the blog or maybe play some games... Well! That's the update for today...

01 November

today just passed by not as smoothly as usual. someone's psp is lost, someone was not haapy with his ERP (Enterprise Resource Planning) result and almost quarrel with the teacher... today really sucks for many of us. well, tomorrow will be a better day, wouldn't it?

Life is always unpredictable. Nobody knows what will happen the next day. Things just come and go. This is life. Whatever the case is, good or bad, we still have to live on. I had been beaten down many times but I still believe I can climb back up but this time it is going to be different. I am as though near the summit of a mountain and never plan to fall again. Well, i know this is lame but this is exactly how i feels.

That's it! Nothing more now... Well! Sayonara!!