November Disasters

Just in a complete foul mood today. I don't know why I feel so lousy today, no spirit to listen to class, mind wondering about and yawning most of the time. Today just sucks. Some matters that I don't feel I should be angry about or sad about, I just feel what I feels. What's wrong with me?

If wish ever come true, I told myself that the first thing that I want is supernatural powers so that I can eliminate all the people that I hate in this world. I really thought I had given up but that feelings keep coming back and I had no one to share with. It feels to me as if no one in this world can be trusted except yourself. Friends are friends for a common goal but when this goal is achieved, friends can turn foes, especially those who like to make fun of people, those are the people that may not be your lifetime friends as I can tell from my experiences. This is also proven right through my experiences. It's all about survival of the fittest in this world and when you are weak, you are most likely to be the odd one out.

Yesterday during test, I admit I had the desire to copy like all of my the other peers but my mind forbided me to do so. It's always my mind and my heart that are telling me what is right and what is wrong (or perhaps it's my parents' teaching). They are the ones that keep me out of troubles. They are the ones that forbid me to do things against my principles. I use my head more than my mouth or fists and that is what make me different from others and because of this, people called me weakling. Who cares? Me is me and no one can change me ever...