Self-Reflection

Something just come over me today and I really felt guilty for disappointing so many people in my 'o' level results. I know what is over, is over, and it is no use crying over spill milk but I really don't know what came over me. I really feel like crying at that very moment.

Indeed i scored an overall GPA of 3.625, which is rather high but based on my history, i should get higher, a overall GPA of 4.0. Aaron told me what the teacher had told him about the class and particularly me, i just felt so useless all of the sudden. To me, the one who motivated me, other than my parents, are teachers and now, friends... My previous aim was really too low for me and hence, i am now going to push my targets up to at most 3.8 and above. Recalling my past, i really had many encouraging teachers but i am just too lazy to do my best acedemically back then. I used to blame the tuition lessons that i had and my parents back then but never did i ever once blame myself for not doing well for tests and exams... But now that i am in ITE, i begin to understand that all faults lies in me and no one else. My first GPA oredi prove it. Seriously, the teacher that i had is really one of a kind and that is why i keep trying my brother that if he gets her to teach his class maths, he may be able to score very well. Those words that signified her disappointment did not come to me directly but as far as i remember, i remembered her telling me, "Aim to be the best in ITE."...

Aaron is right about one thing. 3.625 is not enough for me and should not be easily satisfied with it. 4.0 should be the result i should be getting. My parent told me the same thing too. Being in ITE not only affect me but also my brother. Just one history subject fails and my father was so angry with him. Honestly, i really felt guilty about it and now, i am even more guilty of not studying in the past...