Recent Updates

It looks like i havent blog for a long time. Well! nothing to blog, what do you expect? But now, there will be a lot of things to blog about. Things that just couldnt get off my head.

1. Recent School Update
Well! Like every year, there bound to be someone that i hate or dislike and he or she may also hate or dislike me. Every year going through the same old thing. For this fellow, which i dont want to mention name, i dont even know what is the problem with him. Everything he do is all against me. True! He is a hypocrite. I told myself that it could be any problem: academics, relationships or any other problems. But at least all these turn for the better compared to the past when there are more jokers in class. That time was when i really cannot take their idiotic nonsense till the extent, i really 'exploded'. I guess i may not be going to school tomorrow cos i dont want to know what are those surprises. And hopefully, he would not take it on the others. As for those jokers, that is what i am going to cover next.


2. Recent Blog Update
1 year had passed since i graduated from my secondary school. But those jokers never fail to irritate me whenever they are 'free'. I dont mind them irritating me but impersonating others to irritate me. wtf! And what's more, using my name to irritate others? Damn JOKERS-CUM-POLLUTANTS!!!!!! Rather stop talking about them before i boil my blood. Grrr...


3. Relationships Issues
For this, I really dont know how to say but i just feel that the relationship is worsening. It had been 2 months now and we seldom get to meet, except for school holidays. I used to tell myself that if i ever get into a relationship, it will be my 1st and my last. But can this be turn into reality?

I think that's it for today. Things are much more complicated but i rather simplified it or else i guess this entry will be damn long.

Emptiness

All of us are human beings, but every single one of us has different fate. Look at the positive side, there is a chinese proverb that goes, "If heaven made him, earth can find some use for him". I just feel a sudden emptiness in me today. It made me hate myself even more. The feeling is almost unbearable, far more unbearable than being rejected by someone you like.

I asked myself this question, "How did I land myself in this situation?". Actually, there is an answer in me and I told myself that no matter how hard the rest of the journey goes, "Determination and Perserverence" are the key to my success. This journey may be long and difficult, but with that key with me, I should be able to come through it, hopefully. However, I always tend to look at the negative side. I am so afraid I am unable to make it to poly. The stress that I give myself, so painful, especially when you see someone in your class, heading to poly, that type of stress begin to build up even more. That is why I felt a sudden emptiness in me. I just begin to feel that I took everything in the past for granted. Now I know why I was so against my siblings or anyone that are closest to me choosing the same route as me. Seriously, this is not an easy route. I used to told them that either aim for poly or if possible, JC.

Come to think of it again, after 2 years of stress and if you pass through this 2 years, the years ahead will be much easier, that is if the results allow you to proceed to poly, isn't it?

CNY Preview

Finally, it is here. Chinese New Year!!!!! Woohoo!!!!!! Actually, tomorrow is only the eve of CNY and somehow, the atmosphere is building up around me. I am quite bored now and that is why I am here to blog. According to the old folks, i am actually 19 now, in term of the chinese calendar. Expecting lots of 'ang paos', lol!

Following CNY is Valentine's Day, which is on the 14th February. But I am celebrating it with someone special on the 16th February. Who? Reasons? Don't ask so much! You will know when the time comes. As I said, tomorrow is the eve of CNY. There is suppose to have school but just don't feel like going, so never go tomorrow. Well! That's it for now! Expecting more will be coming soon...