My Natures

Sometimes i asked myself, "Why is my life different from everyone else?" No matter what aspect of life, mine is always different from others. Having sensitive nature can be good and can be bad. You could say that i am more sensitive than others. My emotional nature gets me thinking about a lot of things. Combining the sensitive nature and the emotional nature, you get a perfect being. I am not saying i am perfect though i aim to be perfect.

8 months and i think i have enough. Why can't we be like other couples?-.- I had decided... If everything goes well, it is time for us to face the music, instead of running away. When the time is ripe, i think it is best for me to face her family members. I hate the type of feelings when my emotional nature makes me feel miserable and uneasy.-.- Even if she is online in msn, i always struggle with myself if i should talk to her. Then when i talk to her and she never reply, my sensitive nature took over my emotional nature resulting in my imagination running wild. I had never imagined that loving someone can be so painful. Maybe i am being to naive thinking that loving someone is easy.-.-

Dramas Vs Reality

Yup... Today received my WAD CA2 results and god damn it, only 0.5 mark difference from CA1. But the overall is still an 'A'. Well, at least 1 thing in my mind is rested. But there are many more in my mind have yet to be rested.

Being a cancerian, i guess it is normal to be emotional and sensitive sometimes. Most of the time, my mind is putting a 'defensive wall' for me. If bad things are to happen, at least I won't feel that bad like the time when I was rejected. My girlfriend also asked me, why am I always think of the negative impacts, negative answer and almost everything in my mind are negative. You know something, all of the sudden I just feel that someone knows me and I really wanted to try to know her as much. I like to watch idol dramas and the recently i watched, "命中注定我爱你", there is a phrase i like a lot and really occupied my mind the whole day, "第一次是偶然，第二次是必然，第三次是命中注定。", i asked myself this, "我和她是偶然，必然，还是命中注定？", but i know that in me, i truely wish that is, "命中注定". Guess people who read my blog knows how much i love her, isn't it? Watching the drama, the storyline is almost the same, from strangers to someone who we love. That is why i was so emotional when i watched that drama. To end this, i wanted to include this as a conclusion to this entry: <99次我爱他> KTV:

FlashBacks And Regrets

Today, our class were having teambuilding activities at East Coast Park (ECP). Come to think of it, it was rather pathetic cos more than half of the class did not go for this activity. 2 boys and 5 girls... We have games such as water bombs and 'the amazing race'. I have talk to some of the teachers that teach my class, especially our Class Advisor. He was rather disappointed with the class attendance for the activity. Well! Isn't that obvious? As for Mr. Neo, as far as i know, he was not feeling well and yet he join us in the water bombs game. To me, he is a great teacher. Actually, all of our teachers are great, it just take time to understand each other, that's all!

So far for today, what i wanted to highlight was that me and rachel are finally back together. It prove that all i had done to save this relationship is worthwhile after all. Honestly, i was a bit surprised that she called me this afternoon. As much as i wanted to save this relationship, getting a reply from her was like taking exams results. This storm is finally over. After the 'amazing race', i sat down on the sandy beach waiting for the rest, as well as to think back the time when i was with rachel. I got to admit, i took things for granted as usual. Only after i lost it, i really regretted it. I did not cherished her enough. But now, i realized that i really love her. For the past 4 days without her, i seemed lost and heartache. When she wanted to patch, i was like "WooHoo!". She knew from my tone that i was happy at that moment. "人总是失去后才后悔", how true is it? Sincerity always play an important role in everything in life, love is no exception. At that time, i really wanted to thank God for the second chance rachel gave me.

Now, just wanted to share some photos took at ECP... Sorry for the blur image, i took them with my phone...

(spiderman withour pants... haha!)(Sea View @ ECP)