Sunshine In The Dark - Official Video

Yesterday, i was supposed to meet rachel but in the end, we did not get to meet up. Haix~ No doubt i was angry. I wanted to celebrate her birthday with her for the first time but then she did not turn up. Same goes to the time i wanted to celebrate the first valentine day with her. But strangely enough, i just can't bring myself to really get angry with her whenever she called me to explain everything to me. Maybe it is not my forte to scold girls or maybe i am too soft-hearted or maybe... i love her, that's why.

“打是疼，骂是爱”, it is a chinese proverb that we learnt since young. Things change as each year pass by. In the past, i thought loving someone is easy but now i know, loving someone involves commitment and trust, in order to maintain the relationship. I got to admit. I feel that as a girl, rachel is much stronger, in term of her spirit, than most of the guys. She like to look things at the positive side, unlike me. With her, i really learnt a lot, be it new outdoor activities or character bulit-up. It's her birthday today and i create a surprise just for her in the past few days for her birthday. Erm... Don't comment anything, just watch cos i am not a professional.

Presenting "Sunshine In The Dark" - Lyric And Composed By Nigel:

黑暗中的阳光-Sunshine In The Dark

Song Title: Sunshine In The Dark

生命就是如此的黑暗
就如一般的迷
在没有你的时段
我是如何在黑暗中走过
时时刻刻
想出所有办法
在黑暗中露出阳光
事到如今
我遇见了你
你是我黑暗中的阳光

你是我黑暗中的阳光
My Sunshine in the Dark
是你让我
看到眼前的路程
让我的心再次充满了希望
你是我黑暗中的阳光
My Sunshine in the Dark
无时无刻
在我的身旁
给了我心灵的力量

This song was specially created by me and this song actually tells about my life in the past and how is it different from the present days. It actually records about the things that i went through, close to no friends at all, no future and no love, to what i have today. "Sunshine In The Dark" was actually created for my girlfriend as a birthday gift but then as i think through, i can actually give to those friends that i have now. Like my girlfriend, my friends somehow make me feel equally as them. There is a feeling which is missing in the past, which i have now. If it is ever possible, i really hope that i can make an album out of this song... "Sunshine In The Dark"

Emotional Struggles

First day of the new semester... I am glad that after one long month break, i am back at school. In the past, i never knew i will miss school so much one day. I always occupied myself with computer and some games so as to stop my mind from wondering around into deep space but the hardest part of them all is myself. I just could not get pass myself.

My mind was always contradicting with my heart. There is somehow an inner struggle within myself. Things can be as worse as when i was in secondary school but this is something which no one can really give me the answers to all my questions. The contradiction was so strong that sometimes, i asked myself that how did i get into this situation. It is a battle between the trust that i had long built in my heart and the negative responses that my mind received from the surrounding. It is to the extent that i do not know who is right and who is wrong. In the past, no matter how hard the situation may be, they tend to be a way out but now, my soul is in the complete confusion.

What's more ahead of me? Is my dream for the future ever come true? Only time can tells...

September Modules Results

Woohoo! Double 'A's... For my 1st semester exam results, i got the GPA of 3.447. 'A' for WAD is not really what i expected cos' well. teacher say that our project may pull my result down from 'A' to maybe 'B' or 'C'. But now, thanks god that i finally make it and that i did not let myself down.

I wonder how my other teammates are faring cos if i did well for WAD, they shouldn't be that bad, should they? POM... I was rather worried that my result for this module doesn't live up to my expectation but it turns out all right overall. But still, i am still wondering how they calculate the overall GPA. For all i know, i just have to get an 'A' to pull up my GPA from the past semesters. 3.257 to 3.447, i am certainly improving but the question still lies, "Am i able to go poly with the results i am getting?" I have high hopes on my future. I am not going to let anyone mock at me anymore like in the past. I just want to reach higher than anyone i know. I guess it calls for a celebration if i am able to complete the first race. A step closer to finishing line. Last final semester, i will put in all my best efforts into it in order to reach the finishing line. This is not a race where there are opponents. It is a race that put my future on the line.

WAD - Web Application Development

POM - Principles of Marketing