Emotional Struggles

First day of the new semester... I am glad that after one long month break, i am back at school. In the past, i never knew i will miss school so much one day. I always occupied myself with computer and some games so as to stop my mind from wondering around into deep space but the hardest part of them all is myself. I just could not get pass myself.

My mind was always contradicting with my heart. There is somehow an inner struggle within myself. Things can be as worse as when i was in secondary school but this is something which no one can really give me the answers to all my questions. The contradiction was so strong that sometimes, i asked myself that how did i get into this situation. It is a battle between the trust that i had long built in my heart and the negative responses that my mind received from the surrounding. It is to the extent that i do not know who is right and who is wrong. In the past, no matter how hard the situation may be, they tend to be a way out but now, my soul is in the complete confusion.

What's more ahead of me? Is my dream for the future ever come true? Only time can tells...