Fairy童Tales话 Special Edition: Buried The Past.Think Positive

You know? There are things that i dream of in the past which i felt that it is impossible at all. but it all seems now that dreams may not be just dreams. Today i was supposed to meet rachel but did not do so in the end. Something was telling me all these felt amiss. True enough, my feeling never failed me. But thank god, 雨过天晴.

I don't know where to start but in the end, i just lost for words all of the sudden. There is a mixture of feelings. My tears just nearly rolled out. She gave me a 'code' and wanted me to know what she was trying to tell me. I know part of the 'code' but just refused to accept it. But when she told me what the "d" and the "w" in the 'code' stands for, i am just happy. As the conversation went on, she told me how she feels and i just simply lost for words. I did the same and told her all my feelings. At the same time, i promised her, "Forget the past!" and "Think positive!".

All i could say is that she really changed me. The 11 months i had with her were just simply indescribable. All those that i had went through, it is worthwhile after all.

Simple Wish For A Simple Guy

Back to blogging after surfing the net for so long. Well, i could say that i am kinda lucky sometimes. lolz... don't even know what i am talking about. haha :)!

Life is still the same and could not be any better. Had a chat with my gf today over the phone and i was there teasing her being my nephew's "舅母" or "舅妈" or whatever you call it, and there she was telling me that there is still a long way to go. Actually, i don't call it teasing but rather this is my wish. My wish is simple but not really that easy to achieve. I told myself that my birthday wish for every year is always going to be the same and that is i hope she will be with me every year during my birthday, as in she will still be my gf. Her younger brother kind of remind me of my own younger brother when he was young, at about his age. Playful, naughty and almost uncontrollable. but as he grow older, i just hope he will be more sensible. But still sometimes, i really cannot stand him.

This coming Saturday will be Douglas's birthday and if i am not wrong, it will also be yanzi jie jie's birthday too. Will be going to her place. See if there will be any pictures taken, for if there is, maybe i could post it here and share with everyone or maybe not...

爱的就是你

Today, i just don't know what came over me. I have to admit, i really wanted to cry out but i just don't want others to know i am an useless weakling. The fact is i did slap him hard and although i know i slapped him for a reason, i could not defend myself when he hit back. It is like all of the sudden, my mind went back to the past, what had happened to me before. I don't want to lose what i have now but at the same time, i really wanted to defend my pride.

The days in the past were really hard to pass by and i am really afraid that that same thing may happened again. I was just too scare to do anything at that moment. As i looked back, the more useless i feel about myself. Rachel... She supported me as always. Seriously, i was touched when she wanted to do something for me about this incident. At that time, my tears were already uncontrollable. As serious as she may be, i don't want her to get hurt or anything. Things are sometimes not what she seems to be. Being a weakling myself, i am not even sure if i can protect her if things were to happen to her. As long as i know about her concerns, i am happy enough or more than happy. Enjoy the following MV that concludes this entry: "爱的就是你" - 王力宏