2007-Year of Wonders

A few more days to go before 2007 officially comes to an end. And this is probably the last entry of the year. This year, there are a lot of expected and unexpected things that happened. Some things that I had expected it to happen happened while others is really not what I expected or should I say it will ever come true. I guess most of the credits to go to my friends, I supposed.

Talking about the 4 flavours of my life, if you ask me which of the following flavours I had went through this year, I suppose is the 'sweetness' and the 'sourness'. Compare to my previous years, there is more things for me to remember rather than those that I want to forget. So what are the 'sweetness' feelings, the 'sourness' feelings and the surprising moment that I had this year?
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The 'Sweetness' Feelings
The 'sweetness' feelings that I had, I suppose is that I was able to know the large group of friends that I have now. With them, they really teach me quite a lot of things, which most of the things I feel it is worth me doing some self-reflection. Another thing is that my GPA, I am happy with it but after going some thinking, I feel that my GPA is not good enough for me. 3.625? I should get higher than that. Maybe what about 3.8 or 3.9? Maybe I should get that kind of score. Another sweetest thing that I don't want to talk about, just happened recently. I supposed only the 4 of us know about it. Which 4? It is a secret for the time being.

The 'Sourness' Feelings
The 'sourness' feelings, I don't really want to talk much into it because I don't want that feeling to haunt me again. And yesterday, I had that 'sourness' feeling again, for nothing, thanks to the 3 of them. Well! At least I know their reasons for doing it and I totally understand why they are doing it. I told myself that if that were to happen again, I supposed I will feel that for maybe a week or so. And then, I think I won't be able to get into another relationship again for maybe quite a some time or maybe for a long time, just to avoid that from happening again.

The Surprising Moment
The surprising moment, I supposed also happened quite recently and same thing, I don't want to talk about it just yet. It is a secret for the time being. Also, I guess only the 4 of us know what is it exactly.
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For 1 year, I did not record anything that I feel 'bitter' about and honestly, this is the 1st year that I felt this way. 1 last thing to be happy about is that this blog survive for a year and I feel that this is an accomplishment for me. Well! I hereby wish all of you, HAPPY NEW YEAR 2008

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Finally, the blog is finally serving its main purpose. After so many obstacles of wanting people to know how i feel inside me, at least now it is beginning to take shape, rather than it being a channel for people to argue, insult, mock and etc.. I know i had been repeating a lot of thing here cos all those happening still going on in my mind at those point of moment. I could say that all those happening really did a huge impact in me, especially what happened on 28 March 2006. It is still clearly at the back of my mind.

Whatever the case is, all these are history. What is the use of recalling them? Making me even more miserable. For what? All those thing that happened make me a better person. As far as i am concerned, at least i know how it feels of being someone who was being isolated by everyone, at least i know how it feels of being someone who was being insulted and mocked by others. All these, seriously, make me a better person this year or maybe the years to come. Few more days to a new year, whatever is install for me, I will try and make it even better than this year and last year, of course. It is not about "How a man changes his surrounding." but is that "How the surrounding changes a man.", isn't it? Still there is something that I really want to hold back. True, I still lack confidence in myself or should I say I don't feel comfortable revealing almost everything here. Honestly, this is my private life and I don't think it is right to state it here wihout her permission. Secondly, I don't want to invite anymore insults or whatsoever.

Well! That's it for today... :) And here's a video that I make myself and well, ENJOY! :)

Christmas Countdown

This world is amusing, isn't it? I don't know about others but I certainly feel it is amusing. What can I say? Like I always say, "This is Life!". 4 more days to Christmas and soon another year is coming to an end. Soon, there will be a need for a new year resolution. It seems that I was able to achieve my this year's new year resolution, didn't I? Seeing an improvement in the academic results. But of course, some of the happening this year is not what I had expected. Sometimes, things happened when you least expected it, seriously.

My christmas wish? Well. What's more can I wish for now? Everything seems perfect for me now, isn't it? There seems to be something political going on in class and whether this is a truth, I am going to find out myself. If there is, I am not going to let that person has his or her own ways. Everything have to stop. Just too many happened this term and well, this is all just too coincidence. For me, things is really going well. This year is feel with fun, laughter, excitement, surprises and not to forget, some disappointment, or should I say, heart-broken. Whatever it is, to me, this was all history. And look like those jokers had to eat their words, or so it seems... 4e1 '06 gathering? Why am I not notify about it until now?

That's the update for today... Approximate about 2-3 more posts to go before the blog close for year 2007, i supposed. When i mean close, it doesn't mean I am going to wind up this blog but to conclude everything for this year. Well... Until next time!! :)

Reflections

Finally, the last day of school term... It had been 3 terms now and things look like it was not what i was expecting, but still, you won't know until the very last day of school. True, i really believe that things will always change for the better or worse. Be it either way, life still goes on. I really don't know what, except that this time I had really made the right decision for myself. I chose not to retake 'O's. People like 'donkey' or whoever laughed at me. Some even said that my decision will so called 'ruin' my future. It is where I am now that I really find the real meaning of my life.

Seriously, I was doubtful about the decision that I had made initially but it turns out to be better than I thought. I asked myself, "Even if i succeeded in going to a JC or Poly, will my situation be the same as now?". I doubt it will. Regarding my relationship, I asked myself this, "What is there to be so despo about?" and "Is it because of the surrounding I am in?". What is the rush? What will happen will happen, so why worry and be happy. What is more important in a person is that he has to believe in himself, pull himself back up at once the moment he fall. Failures are not losers, they are rather someone who give up on himself or herself. Maybe like what Aaron said, though i don't exactly remember what he said, "It is just a matter of time."

Friends and results, what is more for me to wish for? Maybe now what is left is relationship but that doesn't matter anymore. I am really happy to have friends and my academic results now, which I lack in the past.

Privacy - Does It Really Matter?

Everyone have been talking about privacy and teaching how serious is the consequences for invading into others' privacy. But does it really matter? Children, teenagers, adults, all of us are the same. We are so eager to know how other people lead their life to the extent we forget everything about privacy. Blog is actually a site for us to pour out all our feelings so that we won't keep them inside to the extent that we may suffer depression in near future. For me, I have this blog so that I can let others know how I really feel inside me about certain things.

This particular incident really remind me of those jokers. It also hit into me that even adults are often untrustworthy. This is my perspective view. I don't know about others. I was really fed up when this incident occured cos' it really remind me of those jokers and it also remind of me why I had to change my blog each time they know about it. Imagine something that happened for so long that be brought up again. Same as last year. That kind of feelings really undescribable. So that is why, it really lead me to think if privacy really matters. But thanks god that this blog of mine really survived for a year. Phew!

So, in conclusion, "Privacy - Does It Really Matters???"