F.F.L

From a single cell organism to a fully developed millions cells organism. It had been 10 years since our family had babies. But only yesterday that I felt that isn't it better for us to remain a baby forever. Nothing to worry about, nothing to feel about and etc. It's impossible but if I can have a wish, I really wants to be a baby forever. Carry around in the arms of those that loves you. Sleep, eat and shit are all we knows. No troubles at all.

Sometimes, I asked myself, "Why can't I be like any of my friends, or rather like any other teenagers or children?". Everything in my life is an obstacles. Family, friendship and love, do I really have to choose 2 out of these 3 things? I am really tired, dead tired. All these are something that I cherish the most. Last time, I may not have friendship and love but at least I have my family. Just when I feel that I am the most fortunate guy in the world, I am forced to make a decision. I don't want to lose any of them, and now I am really lost. In my life, I always believe that as long as you follow your heart, everything will go on smoothly but as it seems now, this is not possible. I always ask myself, " Why is my brother so better of than me in any way?". The reasons are that he knows how to make my parents happy. All my secrets, things that I don't want my parents to know, as long as my brother is around, this is not possible. Secondly, my acedemic results were not as good as my brother's when I was his age. "Everyone is unique"? No way! We are always being compared. Unless I am able to achieve what I set out to achieve, there is no way they will understand.

It looks like now we are into another episode of Fairy童Tales话. The whole new obstacles waited to be clear...