At The Beginning

I know that i post this before, but as compared to the last post, this feeling is totally different. That time was during the 2006 Teachers' Day Celebration, but this time is personal. "At The Beginning" means a lot of meaning to me. The time when i sang it with her over the air. I used a totally different type of tone at that very moment. Starting from a stranger to couple and now this... I had decided to add this song into my Flash project: "Forever-Part 1b". This is for her and hopefully i can get it done by Valentine's Day. As for now, watch this youtube clip and you will understand the meaning behind it...

Lyrics: Refer To The Previous Post

p/s: If I get an 'A' for this project, it will for her. Without her, my flash project will not be possible.

Year of the Ox 2009

January 2009 is a month that i learnt quite a number of lessons and i am sure there will be more coming in the months to come. Firstly is my attitude. I got to change my attitude when talking to people, no matter how much i hated that person. I always blame others but myself. I am very stubborn cos i thought that if you stand your ground, people will recognised you one day but that is not the case. The cause of my attitude may be cos of the insecurity i got in me. Whatever the cause are, i will change my attitude towards people but if things get ugly, i am not running away like i used to be.

Secondly, i learnt why my parents are so against me playing mahjong. Basically, mahjong is also a form of gambling. They don't want me to end up like 'someone' one day. However, they say once in a while won't hurt much. I think like what my mother said, i am kind of addicted to mahjong. Really got to stop before things get out of control. Thirdly, regarding my relationship, i also learnt a valuable lesson. What is yours, will be yours. There is no need to be so die-hearted. As for now, i have decided to let it go. But then......

Chinese New Year is coming. For the chinese, it means another year older. Hopefully, in the Year of the Ox, I can change whatever i had set to change about myself. I don't want my parents to get worry anymore. New year, New beginnning. Wishing all Happy Chinese New Year.

Pre-CNY Thinkings

Super tiring today. I guess i oredi in the CNY mood liao. Dun feel like going to school tmr cos only 2 hrs. But this is not i wanted to update about. It's all about yesterday and today.

Yesterday went to play mahjong at my friend's hse until quite late. Do a bit of thinking later on. My friend told me that i had no skills in playing mahjong but i got the luck, so i am able to minimise the losses. Well, i guess i am really lucky sometimes but lucks do run out. On the way home, i actually thought of something. Sometimes, things may be luck but others may need hard work. Take for example, academics and well, relationships. Academics and relationship alike, i need to work harder on both of them. As for Mahjong, i am going to quit it, like it or not, but not until after CNY and my class chalet :)... Academics: i am working hard to get promoted to polys. Relationship: i am trying hard so that me and rachel can be back together one day, though now that we are just friends. Had a little quarrel with my father too. Can't understand adults sometimes.

Today, on the way back home from IMM, i was watching this documentary on TVMobile. I came across this phrase that really get me to think a lot, "因为不是‘别人’，所以等待是值得的。" . I finally straighten out my mind, no matter whether it is possible or not, i will wait for her cos' she is not any other stranger i met on the road, she is the one that unlocked my inner personality. No matter the outcome will be a sad ending or a happy ending, she will be worth it afterall...

Updated New Year Resolution 2009

I know a lot of things had happened to me this month and seriously, i am not really in a good mood. Well, some of my friends noticed that and some don't. But whether i want to face up to reality or not, i chose to face up with it. She is history now, i supposed. The 1 last thing i can do is to finish the projects given by teachers. As for one of the projects, that is Macromedia Flash , i choose to do a story that are about me and rachel. It's titled, "Forever-Part 1". As for part 2, i don't really want to think of it, or there may be a new female lead in Part 2. As far as i am concerned, this is the last thing that i want do to remember the things we did when we were together.

My heart had been broken too many times. I tried to cry to relieve myself but i can't. Anyway, for now, i am 100% focus on my goal. Score a GPA of 3 and above and head to Poly. As for the Polys i want to go and the courses i want to take, i had an idea. Just wanted to name them out so as to make sure i work towards them:

1) Singapore Polytechnic (SP)-BIT

2) Ngee Ann Polytechnic (NP)-BIT

3) Temasek Polytechnic (TP)-BIT

As for why i chose TP is because, well i used to have a lecture there so i figured it will be much easier to head in though very far from where i stay. Well, all the best for me. Not to mention this is my updated new year resolution. The previous one is void.

New Skin 2009

Finally, got my new blog skin done. Look for a long time before i found one that matched my current mood and feeling.

I really don't know what to do. What is my next step? Sad, heart-broken... I really wanted to cry out loud. At least it is better than keeping inside of me. Painful, very painful. Forget the past? How am I supposed to forget the memories we formed in 2008? It just happened so suddenly. I 'predicted' it but still i find it real hard to accept reality. But then, better than others, at least we are still friends. I really lost for words now. I guess the music video will descibe my feeling now: 说好的幸福呢? - 周杰伦

Movie Review

Everyday in life, all of us will learn something, either through someone or through some events that had happened, it is the matter of if we take note of each events and what we had learnt. Today, i went to west mall and catch a movie with my friends, "Yes Man". Somehow or other, i could find some connections between me and the main actor of the show.

Like me, Carl (Jim Carrey) was always negative when looking at things. Whenever his friends asked him out or asked him for help, he always give the answer "NO!". After a series of events, he met a girl and as he said in the movie, that girl was completely the opposite of him. Same goes for me, before i met rachel, i didn't realized that i was so negative until one fateful day. Similar to the movie, rachel is completely the opposite of me. She is so positive and she always told me, "Forgive And Forget". People always say that if i am with this girl or that girl, i would be the luckiest person on earth, but i say to have rachel in my life, i am the luckiest person on earth.

On the way back, there is a lot of thing in my mind. After my friend told me what happened to him, i realized that the proof that a couple is together is not the time they spent with one another but it is their love that matter. Come to think of it, Heaven really dote on me. Always trying to make me a better person by showing me through others' examples. I could not complain more, seriously.

New Year Resolution 2009

It's the 4th day of 2009... And yet to put up a new blog skin and yet to have a new year resolution. Seriously, what different would the new year make for me? Just a simple for the new year. My New Year Resolution 2009 and well, trying to put up with some new blog skin if i have the time. Well, here it goes.

New Year Resolution 2009:
1) Able to get promoted after my ITE education
2) Hope for another smooth year for my relationship
3) Able to achieve what stated above. Haha! :)

Well, that is all. I think it is more like what i wish for 2009 but it doesn't matter, does it? Oh well! I guess that it for the 1st entry of 2009 :)