Waiting For "Exam" Results

As the posting results of Poly are closing in, i feel more and more nervous, if i will be able to get into my desire poly and course or not. But as the matter of facts, there is something in this world that i am more nervous about, as compared to my academic results and that is, getting a reply from rachel. For now, nothing can be as important as that.

Telling her how i feel is like taking an exam. In fact, i felt more nervous till the extent that i was tougue-tied occasionally. My mind even went blank for a short period of time, sometimes, and i had to stop and recalled what i wanted to tell her. It is not that my feelings for her aren't true but, i had to ensure that what i told her is directly from the bottom of my heart. For most guys, i guess they wouldn't tell their steads how their family members felt about her, cos they are afraid that their steads would leave them. But for me, it is better to be honest to them so that in future, there won't be any misunderstanding. Of cos, being honest is not enough but also try and solve the differences between the two parties. Just 2 days of class chalet and so many things happened in the outside world. I just couldn't afford to waste any more time. The "exam" is over and here i am waiting nervously for the release of results on 10 April... My hope? Well... It is obvious that i hope that i'm able to "pass"... What if i fail? Never thought of it...

To conclude it all, there are two females in my life who are the most important people to me, one is my mother and the other is rachel... In fact, both of them always hold the first place in my heart. I shall not write the reasons cos even my own hair stands, when i thought of the reasons. Haha! But they will know when i told them verbally...

p.s. My heart is nothing but a hollow shell without you filling it up.